I'm going to have my little boy in spring! So obviously all summer I'm going to be taking care of a newborn. I thought that the father would maybe be around and get to know our little boy like he said he would.
Well turns out he's decided to go on vacation for a hole month right after the baby is born. He told me he would spend all summer around our little boy and try to spend time with him. Guess not. And as soon as he gets back he's going to have to start thinking about school and getting ready for school. He's really not going to have a lot of time to spend with out little guy. My mom thinks that once he sees him and holds him that he will change his mind. But honestly I think it will just want to make him run even more.
I feel so bad for our little boy. I wish I would have waited and I wish I would have chosen a better father for him. He already means the world to me and I would do anything for him. He deserves a father who feels the same way. Even if his father and I weren't together he deserves someone who will care about him. I'm trying to respect Danny and his choices but sometimes it's just so hard when I see things so differently. All I can do is be here for out son and tell him that his daddy loves him but he just wasn't ready.
But good news is that I think I have fallen in love with the name Max. I just need to get Danny to agree to it. Oh goodie.
Hi Amy,
ReplyDeleteYou are both so young, and I'm sure he is scared and feels that being a father at (what 16 or 17?)is not in any way what he ever dreamed or imagined for himself. If he is unable to deal with it and bond with the baby now, it is due to his immaturity, and I do not mean this in a negative way. When we are so young, we see things one way, and sometimes much later in life, we realize the significance of it all. I hope that he will fall in love with his baby and that your little boy will have a loving father in his life always. Because if he doesn't, this might be one of those things that come to haunt you much later in life. I would hate for him to be in his 30s or 40s, or older, and find that there is a little part of him out there in the world that he really doesn't have a connection to. I am in my 40s now. My DH and I were not able to have children due to male factor infertility. I have a good life, and I have a loving and caring extended family, but I would have loved to have a child of my own. It looks like you have the support of your parents and siblings, and that is really good. Just remember, when your baby is trying your patience, and you haven't slept well in days, or when you cannot be out and about doing the things that your friends who do not have the responsibility of a child, get to do, that you have something precious, and you will God willing, appreciate this more and more the older you get. I wish you the best. :)