The story between my mom and I

I've always been close to my mom. She said even from the moment I was born we had a close bond.

When she was going through the divorce between her and my dad it was to keep myself and her self safe. I didn't understand it at the time but i trusted her. Then we found out she had breast cancer and I didn't understand that either because I was just 11 and I had no idea what was going on with her. Luckily they caught it at an early stage and she was just fine. But then I was going through a stage. When I turned 15 I went through the "teenage girl" stage. I pushed her away as hard as I could.

Now i realize that it wasn't because of her. It was because I really wanted my dad to notice me, and apparently being some bad kid was going to make him do that. It didn't. My mom wouldn't let me push her away though. She fought for me so hard. I only now realize how much I hurt her. I wish I could take it all back and realize that my dad was not going to honestly care and my mom did care. Now I'm pregnant. But honestly it brought us so much closer. I realized how bad I was messing up my life and how much my mom cared. My mom and I are best friends. Honestly I've never felt closer to anyone. And now I hope that I can have that relationship with my son. I hope we can be as close to him as I am to my mother.