Last night actually went well.

I've decided that keeping my baby's dads real name a secret is kind of goofy because my son will partly be named after him. So his name is Daniel but he goes by Danny. So him and his family came over last night and it was very awkward at first. When they rang the door bell I got terrible butterflies and I could barely answer the door. But they came in and everyone gave my a hug and we went into the living room and started talking. Every time Danny went to talk his voice was shaky like he was about to cry. It hurts me to see him like that because I have so many feelings for him and I just wanted to go hold his hand and tell him that we will get through this together.

The hole point of the meeting was to talk about how it's going to be after the baby is born. Danny isn't sure what he wants to do. He was thinking about giving up all of his rights but was wondering if he could still see the baby. If he gave up all of his rights then he wouldn't have to pay a cent. I've very stuck on how I should go on with that. I don't want to punish our son because his dad doesn't want to pay child support. But I don't want Danny to get to enjoy everything while having no responsibility. But if he signs over his rights I have to agree. So maybe I just won't. But I don't know. I'm so confused. I guess I have a couple months to think about it. I don't think Danny will know what he wants until our baby is here and he gets to see him and hold him.

But overall the meeting went very well and everyone thought I handled it very well. Which made me happy. Another thing was I felt really pretty when they came over, and Danny looked like a mess. Which also made me feel really good. I was worried that I would see him and feel hurt and all my feelings would come rushing back but it wasn't bad at all. His mom was really hurt we didn't invite her to the baby shower though. So we invited her. I think they want to meet more often and get to know our family better. They said next time we will do dinner so it's not so awkward. Which makes me feel better. But I'm happy with how everything went. Danny will be going to an infant care class with me. Hope it goes well. Talk to you guys soon.