I'm going to have my little boy in spring! So obviously all summer I'm going to be taking care of a newborn. I thought that the father would maybe be around and get to know our little boy like he said he would.
Well turns out he's decided to go on vacation for a hole month right after the baby is born. He told me he would spend all summer around our little boy and try to spend time with him. Guess not. And as soon as he gets back he's going to have to start thinking about school and getting ready for school. He's really not going to have a lot of time to spend with out little guy. My mom thinks that once he sees him and holds him that he will change his mind. But honestly I think it will just want to make him run even more.
I feel so bad for our little boy. I wish I would have waited and I wish I would have chosen a better father for him. He already means the world to me and I would do anything for him. He deserves a father who feels the same way. Even if his father and I weren't together he deserves someone who will care about him. I'm trying to respect Danny and his choices but sometimes it's just so hard when I see things so differently. All I can do is be here for out son and tell him that his daddy loves him but he just wasn't ready.
But good news is that I think I have fallen in love with the name Max. I just need to get Danny to agree to it. Oh goodie.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Monday, April 15, 2013
Baby Shower Weekend!
Wow this weekend was so crazy! It all started Friday around noon when my sister came over and we started planning on what we had to get done and what we had to get at the store.
I had a doctors appointment Friday so I went to that while my sister did the shopping. my baby is healthy and good! I have 3 more weeks until I get to see him via ultrasound. But anyways as soon as I got home there was nothing but work to do. But it was fun my sister was there and my neighbor came over and helped and my mom was there of course. It was a lot of fun but I couldn't wait to get to bed! But then I woke up at 6:30 a.m.! I couldn't go back to sleep so I got up and started to get ready for the day because we had a lot to do before eleven. We worked up until the very first person arrived. Then I had to mingle and there were so many people there!!
So many people showed up and I felt so loved. They were all so supportive and everyone got me so many gifts. Mostly diapers of course which was awesome! But also a lot of other things I needed! It was honestly so amazing. My neighbor bought me the stroller and car seat I wanted! She has helped me out so much. I have no idea where I would be without her and her boyfriend. Danny's mother was also there and she was awesome! She got me so much stuff and some things that reminded her of Danny when he was a baby which honestly meant a lot to me. She did very well blending in with my family and friends. The shower went very well! It ended around 5 because everyone didn't want to leave! When they finally did they said it was the best shower that they have ever been to. That made me so happy. :)
But by the end i was so tired and so worn out. I was in so much pain at one point I thought that maybe I was going to go into labor and so did my mom. I tried to get comfortable and go to bed but I just couldn't get comfortable! But I ended up being so exhausted I just passed out. But I still haven't gotten back to feeling 100% better. But I'm sure I won't feel that way until my baby is born.
Oh yeah and I'm still looking for names. I can't stand having a nameless baby anymore :(
33 weeks! 7 weeks left until my due date. 4 weeks until I'm full term! 3 weeks until I get to see him :)
I had a doctors appointment Friday so I went to that while my sister did the shopping. my baby is healthy and good! I have 3 more weeks until I get to see him via ultrasound. But anyways as soon as I got home there was nothing but work to do. But it was fun my sister was there and my neighbor came over and helped and my mom was there of course. It was a lot of fun but I couldn't wait to get to bed! But then I woke up at 6:30 a.m.! I couldn't go back to sleep so I got up and started to get ready for the day because we had a lot to do before eleven. We worked up until the very first person arrived. Then I had to mingle and there were so many people there!!
So many people showed up and I felt so loved. They were all so supportive and everyone got me so many gifts. Mostly diapers of course which was awesome! But also a lot of other things I needed! It was honestly so amazing. My neighbor bought me the stroller and car seat I wanted! She has helped me out so much. I have no idea where I would be without her and her boyfriend. Danny's mother was also there and she was awesome! She got me so much stuff and some things that reminded her of Danny when he was a baby which honestly meant a lot to me. She did very well blending in with my family and friends. The shower went very well! It ended around 5 because everyone didn't want to leave! When they finally did they said it was the best shower that they have ever been to. That made me so happy. :)
But by the end i was so tired and so worn out. I was in so much pain at one point I thought that maybe I was going to go into labor and so did my mom. I tried to get comfortable and go to bed but I just couldn't get comfortable! But I ended up being so exhausted I just passed out. But I still haven't gotten back to feeling 100% better. But I'm sure I won't feel that way until my baby is born.
Oh yeah and I'm still looking for names. I can't stand having a nameless baby anymore :(
33 weeks! 7 weeks left until my due date. 4 weeks until I'm full term! 3 weeks until I get to see him :)
Monday, April 8, 2013
Are you kidding me?
So it's about Danny again. He is really getting on my nerves. He tells on Friday he is going to come over Sunday at 7:00 pm so we can talk about what he is thinking after meeting up with his lawyer and talking about what his options were.
So I'm expecting him at 7. Sunday morning he says he's going to be there at 7:15 and he has to leave at 7:45. That made me mad first. Then an hour before he was suppose to be there he said he was going to be late. He got to my house at 7:45 and said he only had 10 minutes to talk. That really pissed me off. Then the hole time he was talking he wouldn't look at me and only looked at my mom. Seriously? This is suppose to be between you and me. Make some eye contact. Then what he had to say really pissed me off.
What his lawyer told him was that he couldn't give up all of his rights because our baby needed a "second parent". I know that our baby will know that I am his mother and Danny is his father. So practically he wants my mom to adopt his rights of our baby. That extremely pissed me off. My mom maybe helping my financially but she is not going to be the "mother" of my child. I am going to be the mother of my child and that is that. So no my mother will not adopt your rights. I'm sorry you thought that was a good idea. Then he says he still wants to be able to see that baby but he doesn't want to be responsible for him in anyway, shape, or form. Not happening. So obviously he really pissed me off.
Then I said I would think about and he says "okay, well no rush you have two months". Honestly? I ONLY have two months. Two months is not a lot of time and it will go by fast. Our baby will be here before either of us know it. Do you even think about what you say? Or are you just trying to piss me off?
So I'm expecting him at 7. Sunday morning he says he's going to be there at 7:15 and he has to leave at 7:45. That made me mad first. Then an hour before he was suppose to be there he said he was going to be late. He got to my house at 7:45 and said he only had 10 minutes to talk. That really pissed me off. Then the hole time he was talking he wouldn't look at me and only looked at my mom. Seriously? This is suppose to be between you and me. Make some eye contact. Then what he had to say really pissed me off.
What his lawyer told him was that he couldn't give up all of his rights because our baby needed a "second parent". I know that our baby will know that I am his mother and Danny is his father. So practically he wants my mom to adopt his rights of our baby. That extremely pissed me off. My mom maybe helping my financially but she is not going to be the "mother" of my child. I am going to be the mother of my child and that is that. So no my mother will not adopt your rights. I'm sorry you thought that was a good idea. Then he says he still wants to be able to see that baby but he doesn't want to be responsible for him in anyway, shape, or form. Not happening. So obviously he really pissed me off.
Then I said I would think about and he says "okay, well no rush you have two months". Honestly? I ONLY have two months. Two months is not a lot of time and it will go by fast. Our baby will be here before either of us know it. Do you even think about what you say? Or are you just trying to piss me off?
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Is everyone else pregnant too?
Holy cow is everyone moody tonight.
I'm weepy and my mom is angry. Trying to plan for my baby shower and what decorations we need to get next week because my baby shower is next Saturday. She bit my head off. Ugh. We went over to our friend Shannon's earlier and she was fighting with her boyfriend and it was super awkward. I just want to go to bed. So I will. Tomorrow morning my dad is dropping off the baby bedding and I seriously cannot wait!
I'm weepy and my mom is angry. Trying to plan for my baby shower and what decorations we need to get next week because my baby shower is next Saturday. She bit my head off. Ugh. We went over to our friend Shannon's earlier and she was fighting with her boyfriend and it was super awkward. I just want to go to bed. So I will. Tomorrow morning my dad is dropping off the baby bedding and I seriously cannot wait!
Naming my little boy
I am honestly having the hardest time trying to name my little boy! I've never felt so much pressure to find the perfect name!
I wanted him to have the same middle name as my dad, Russell. But then I decided I wanted him to have Danny's name as his middle name, Daniel. So I've been thinking of good names that go with those names. I still don't know if he will have my last name or if he will have Danny's last name. I figured we would have to wait until he's actually here and Danny knows how he wants to be involved and how much he is going to be involved. Honestly I have so many questions and they can't be answered until the baby is here!! 9 weeks! That's a long time to wait when you just want to know now. Ha, ha.
Danny and I talk about names a lot actually but we can never agree. I love the name Aiden. Aiden Daniel but Danny hates it! We've agreed on Logan though. I came up with that one but I don't love it. You know? I mean I could live with it but I don't love it, and I can tell Danny doesn't either. Does anyone have any suggestions? I want something not too common. That's another thing wrong with Aiden is that it's way to common. I really need names!! I need one that we love. Danny loves Tripp but I HATE that name.
HELP!!
I wanted him to have the same middle name as my dad, Russell. But then I decided I wanted him to have Danny's name as his middle name, Daniel. So I've been thinking of good names that go with those names. I still don't know if he will have my last name or if he will have Danny's last name. I figured we would have to wait until he's actually here and Danny knows how he wants to be involved and how much he is going to be involved. Honestly I have so many questions and they can't be answered until the baby is here!! 9 weeks! That's a long time to wait when you just want to know now. Ha, ha.
Danny and I talk about names a lot actually but we can never agree. I love the name Aiden. Aiden Daniel but Danny hates it! We've agreed on Logan though. I came up with that one but I don't love it. You know? I mean I could live with it but I don't love it, and I can tell Danny doesn't either. Does anyone have any suggestions? I want something not too common. That's another thing wrong with Aiden is that it's way to common. I really need names!! I need one that we love. Danny loves Tripp but I HATE that name.
HELP!!
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
The story between my mom and I
I've always been close to my mom. She said even from the moment I was born we had a close bond.
When she was going through the divorce between her and my dad it was to keep myself and her self safe. I didn't understand it at the time but i trusted her. Then we found out she had breast cancer and I didn't understand that either because I was just 11 and I had no idea what was going on with her. Luckily they caught it at an early stage and she was just fine. But then I was going through a stage. When I turned 15 I went through the "teenage girl" stage. I pushed her away as hard as I could.
Now i realize that it wasn't because of her. It was because I really wanted my dad to notice me, and apparently being some bad kid was going to make him do that. It didn't. My mom wouldn't let me push her away though. She fought for me so hard. I only now realize how much I hurt her. I wish I could take it all back and realize that my dad was not going to honestly care and my mom did care. Now I'm pregnant. But honestly it brought us so much closer. I realized how bad I was messing up my life and how much my mom cared. My mom and I are best friends. Honestly I've never felt closer to anyone. And now I hope that I can have that relationship with my son. I hope we can be as close to him as I am to my mother.
When she was going through the divorce between her and my dad it was to keep myself and her self safe. I didn't understand it at the time but i trusted her. Then we found out she had breast cancer and I didn't understand that either because I was just 11 and I had no idea what was going on with her. Luckily they caught it at an early stage and she was just fine. But then I was going through a stage. When I turned 15 I went through the "teenage girl" stage. I pushed her away as hard as I could.
Now i realize that it wasn't because of her. It was because I really wanted my dad to notice me, and apparently being some bad kid was going to make him do that. It didn't. My mom wouldn't let me push her away though. She fought for me so hard. I only now realize how much I hurt her. I wish I could take it all back and realize that my dad was not going to honestly care and my mom did care. Now I'm pregnant. But honestly it brought us so much closer. I realized how bad I was messing up my life and how much my mom cared. My mom and I are best friends. Honestly I've never felt closer to anyone. And now I hope that I can have that relationship with my son. I hope we can be as close to him as I am to my mother.
Last night actually went well.
I've decided that keeping my baby's dads real name a secret is kind of goofy because my son will partly be named after him. So his name is Daniel but he goes by Danny. So him and his family came over last night and it was very awkward at first. When they rang the door bell I got terrible butterflies and I could barely answer the door. But they came in and everyone gave my a hug and we went into the living room and started talking. Every time Danny went to talk his voice was shaky like he was about to cry. It hurts me to see him like that because I have so many feelings for him and I just wanted to go hold his hand and tell him that we will get through this together.
The hole point of the meeting was to talk about how it's going to be after the baby is born. Danny isn't sure what he wants to do. He was thinking about giving up all of his rights but was wondering if he could still see the baby. If he gave up all of his rights then he wouldn't have to pay a cent. I've very stuck on how I should go on with that. I don't want to punish our son because his dad doesn't want to pay child support. But I don't want Danny to get to enjoy everything while having no responsibility. But if he signs over his rights I have to agree. So maybe I just won't. But I don't know. I'm so confused. I guess I have a couple months to think about it. I don't think Danny will know what he wants until our baby is here and he gets to see him and hold him.
But overall the meeting went very well and everyone thought I handled it very well. Which made me happy. Another thing was I felt really pretty when they came over, and Danny looked like a mess. Which also made me feel really good. I was worried that I would see him and feel hurt and all my feelings would come rushing back but it wasn't bad at all. His mom was really hurt we didn't invite her to the baby shower though. So we invited her. I think they want to meet more often and get to know our family better. They said next time we will do dinner so it's not so awkward. Which makes me feel better. But I'm happy with how everything went. Danny will be going to an infant care class with me. Hope it goes well. Talk to you guys soon.
I've decided that keeping my baby's dads real name a secret is kind of goofy because my son will partly be named after him. So his name is Daniel but he goes by Danny. So him and his family came over last night and it was very awkward at first. When they rang the door bell I got terrible butterflies and I could barely answer the door. But they came in and everyone gave my a hug and we went into the living room and started talking. Every time Danny went to talk his voice was shaky like he was about to cry. It hurts me to see him like that because I have so many feelings for him and I just wanted to go hold his hand and tell him that we will get through this together.
The hole point of the meeting was to talk about how it's going to be after the baby is born. Danny isn't sure what he wants to do. He was thinking about giving up all of his rights but was wondering if he could still see the baby. If he gave up all of his rights then he wouldn't have to pay a cent. I've very stuck on how I should go on with that. I don't want to punish our son because his dad doesn't want to pay child support. But I don't want Danny to get to enjoy everything while having no responsibility. But if he signs over his rights I have to agree. So maybe I just won't. But I don't know. I'm so confused. I guess I have a couple months to think about it. I don't think Danny will know what he wants until our baby is here and he gets to see him and hold him.
But overall the meeting went very well and everyone thought I handled it very well. Which made me happy. Another thing was I felt really pretty when they came over, and Danny looked like a mess. Which also made me feel really good. I was worried that I would see him and feel hurt and all my feelings would come rushing back but it wasn't bad at all. His mom was really hurt we didn't invite her to the baby shower though. So we invited her. I think they want to meet more often and get to know our family better. They said next time we will do dinner so it's not so awkward. Which makes me feel better. But I'm happy with how everything went. Danny will be going to an infant care class with me. Hope it goes well. Talk to you guys soon.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Baby daddy issues
Tonight is going to be crazy.
My baby's dad is coming over with his family to discuss how things are going to be after this little baby is born. I thought might as well sense we only have 2 months left until he's here. Give or take that is. But his family really stresses my mom and myself out. Now I'm not going to be naming actual names in my blog due to privacy for the baby's father and his family but I'll use fake names so it's not so confusing. Let's say that my baby's fathers name is Tanner.
Well Tanner really can't stand up to his parents and say how he feels about all of this and about how he wants to be apart of this baby's life. So his parents talk for him all the time. I've even found myself texting his dad and thinking it was him. His mom reads and prints out every single text message I send to Tanner. So I stopped talking to him and he got all angry with me because he thought I was avoiding him and important things we needed to talk about. When really I just wanted to talk about them face to face with him. So now his parents think they need to step in and talk to myself and my mother about how things are going to be after this baby is born.
Honestly I'm excited for them to come over. I can't wait to stand up for myself and show them that they can't push me around. Tanner's parents are divorced. His mom and dad and step mother are coming over. He also has a twin brother but I don't think he is going to be coming over. So he has a total of five people coming over while I only have two; myself and my mom. We are really close with our neighbors, Shannon and Fernando. Fernando has taken over the role as a father figure in my life and they told us just to shoot them a text and they would be over to help us. But I think my mom and I will do a good job. My mom is a very strong women and I really look up to her. Our relationship has gotten a lot stronger sense I've gotten pregnant. I'll save that story for later though.
I'm sure tomorrow I'll have a good story to tell. Stay tuned!
My baby's dad is coming over with his family to discuss how things are going to be after this little baby is born. I thought might as well sense we only have 2 months left until he's here. Give or take that is. But his family really stresses my mom and myself out. Now I'm not going to be naming actual names in my blog due to privacy for the baby's father and his family but I'll use fake names so it's not so confusing. Let's say that my baby's fathers name is Tanner.
Well Tanner really can't stand up to his parents and say how he feels about all of this and about how he wants to be apart of this baby's life. So his parents talk for him all the time. I've even found myself texting his dad and thinking it was him. His mom reads and prints out every single text message I send to Tanner. So I stopped talking to him and he got all angry with me because he thought I was avoiding him and important things we needed to talk about. When really I just wanted to talk about them face to face with him. So now his parents think they need to step in and talk to myself and my mother about how things are going to be after this baby is born.
Honestly I'm excited for them to come over. I can't wait to stand up for myself and show them that they can't push me around. Tanner's parents are divorced. His mom and dad and step mother are coming over. He also has a twin brother but I don't think he is going to be coming over. So he has a total of five people coming over while I only have two; myself and my mom. We are really close with our neighbors, Shannon and Fernando. Fernando has taken over the role as a father figure in my life and they told us just to shoot them a text and they would be over to help us. But I think my mom and I will do a good job. My mom is a very strong women and I really look up to her. Our relationship has gotten a lot stronger sense I've gotten pregnant. I'll save that story for later though.
I'm sure tomorrow I'll have a good story to tell. Stay tuned!
Monday, April 1, 2013
The situation
Hello everyone!
My name is Amy and I am a pregnant teenager. I decided to start a blog to let everyone know what it's like. I didn't mean to get pregnant I was using protection but obviously it failed. It could happen to anyone and it happened to me. My baby is a blessing and honestly I think he saved my life. I was going down a bad path and as soon as I found out I was pregnant I woke up and realized this was not what I wanted my life to be like. My mom has been very supportive and very amazing through out this hole thing. My parents are divorced but my father is the son of a teen mom too and he really wanted me to keep my baby even when I was considering adoption. He has been very supportive too and so has my hole family as they have been finding out the news. I am having a son and he is due June 2! I am 31 weeks pregnant and I know I'm starting my blog kind of late but better late then never huh?! I am getting very excited about my baby boy coming into this world. I am nervous about labor but I mean who isn't?? The father is still trying to figure out how he is going to be involved we are not together. We were at one point and I loved him a lot. I still have love for him but it's hard. Our relationship is rough and we fight a lot now but we are trying to make things better for our baby boy! So you are welcome to follow my journey into motherhood!
I am 31 weeks! 9 more to go.
Amy. a.k.a. Colorado teen mom
My name is Amy and I am a pregnant teenager. I decided to start a blog to let everyone know what it's like. I didn't mean to get pregnant I was using protection but obviously it failed. It could happen to anyone and it happened to me. My baby is a blessing and honestly I think he saved my life. I was going down a bad path and as soon as I found out I was pregnant I woke up and realized this was not what I wanted my life to be like. My mom has been very supportive and very amazing through out this hole thing. My parents are divorced but my father is the son of a teen mom too and he really wanted me to keep my baby even when I was considering adoption. He has been very supportive too and so has my hole family as they have been finding out the news. I am having a son and he is due June 2! I am 31 weeks pregnant and I know I'm starting my blog kind of late but better late then never huh?! I am getting very excited about my baby boy coming into this world. I am nervous about labor but I mean who isn't?? The father is still trying to figure out how he is going to be involved we are not together. We were at one point and I loved him a lot. I still have love for him but it's hard. Our relationship is rough and we fight a lot now but we are trying to make things better for our baby boy! So you are welcome to follow my journey into motherhood!
I am 31 weeks! 9 more to go.
Amy. a.k.a. Colorado teen mom
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